So, it seems like now that no matter what anyone does to you or how they treat you they can get away with anything, unless its me.
Ive seen people hurt by their actions and to be quite honest if you want to let them walk all over you and begin your downward spiral to a drepressive state, let it be. But dont come running back to me when you realise that I was right.
To do what he did last week after my specific instruction to ignore him regardless of what you thought of me and then ignore what I asked, then it shows a total lack of disregard and respect to me. So, if you have that attitude now, how were you when we were together?
In a nice way, I really feel like you deserve each other. He dont give a tinkers cuss about feelings, as long as hes getting his knob wet then its all fine. And you fall for anyone that throws a little bit of affection in your direction. If I was the same then I sure as hell would have no one left in the world. And Ive been there and done it, so just take a bit of advice. Avi is a bastard. End of.
Its genuinely been a while since I’ve actually had something to say, well something productive at least. But over the weekend there has been a lot that has come to the surface of the water.
For one, it seems like I’ve become a fortune teller. If I could have told you everything that I actually told people 6 months ago and put a bet on it at the bookies, I would now be a bloody millionaire. How things have turned out is another thing, cause I never thought a few things would have happened. But, you just know when someone pulls the wool over their eyes. And as described in the courtyard earlier, “they have so much wool over their eyes you could cum on their face and not even give them pinkeye”.
I would just love to know what goes through some peoples minds sometimes. The fact that I was everything someone wanted 2 months ago, and now mean nothing to them makes life hard. But who needs Eastenders with me around.
The fact that I was right just shows that all along that I did have an idea of things. Might just try to get employed as a gypo fortune teller.
Things happen for the best though and there is so much to now look forward to. 7 weeks of commuting to Nottingham, a new job to add to Lush in September, a new house AND CHRISTMAS!! Who needs anything else?
To be quite honest there are a lot of lessons to be learned in life. Conquering fears, sharing smiles, causing problems. All are to be experienced. All are to be enjoyed at times. All are to become just a memory of something that happened.
One thing that I have learned in the past 24 hours is that keeping friends close will always help you in them type of situations. Cause going through life without people to rely on or without having people relying on you can make your life experience boring.
Who wants that? Involved in a life where routine takes over? Where loneliness devours the lightest part of the brightest place? Where your aspirations are dimmed by your career choices?
Be daring. Having friends means having a life and although most people think me and many others out there don’t have one, I think people may be very surprised.
Forget about restrictions and let your mind roam free. Experience the inexperienced. Enjoy the unendurable. Watch your paint dry with pint of vodka and make it fun enough to laugh at.
Just don’t forget those who are there. Because the above won’t be possible with just will power and a bottle of wine.